blaze it

Since the last time I sent this thing, The Strokes and Fiona Apple have released new albums. Two records that will define the sound this time for some, and probably make us quiver with dread in years to come. But for now, we've been enjoying them, and also lots of Daniel Tiger and this great playlist that Jenna Wortham shared.

A few weeks ago, I decided to try a new coping mechanism, which is to bury myself in work (has anyone ever done this? jk). It's weird when I talk to friends or family about how we're doing because the day is made up of "ephemeral things like meals and feelings" (Jordan Kisner) as opposed to interesting or eventful things we can share. Facetiming and talking on the phone at times makes me feel happy and connected, and other times it makes me feel more anxious and hopeless.

Over the weekend while walking around the neighborhood in the middle of the day, I noticed there were no airplanes in the sky for the duration of our time outside. I keep thinking about whether we will make it to Australia this Christmas.

The best part of my day yesterday was sitting in the sun for 20 minutes with a glass of wine reading Emily Gould's new novel 'Perfect Tunes'. It's set in 'The Strokes- Is This It'- era New York and is about a mother/daughter relationship. It's about how you can never know what kind of person your mother was before she had you, because the moment she had you she was fundamentally changed. Anyway, it's 100% up my alley for 101 reasons and I'm so glad I get to read it right now during iso.

We had a minor plumbing issue which required a plumber to come into the house. He was great, and wore a mask and we kept our distance, but it was the first time in 6 weeks that anyone had entered our space and I felt uneasy and protective; as if we had created a cocoon. I can't wait to not feel like this. The hyper-vigilance is exhausting.

We watched a documentary called Fantastic Fungi about mushrooms. It was fascinating! I now fully believe that they are the most important things on the planet and I want to have a psilocybin trip as soon as possible. There was a great sign in the background of one shot "Mycologists have more FUNgi".

I saw that my daughter has a pile of Thomas the Tank Engine books which are past their due date at the library. I had taken her to get her library card just a few weeks before all this, and these were the first books she borrowed on her own card. When will we take out a library book again?

I'm working through The Artist's Way (has anyone ever done this? jk again). The morning pages feel like a doomsday diary so far and are mainly filled with complaints and anxieties. I think this is OK, and partly the point.

We topped up Isha's milk the other day with barista oat milk because we didn't have enough regular milk. I can't seem to get anything but barista style non-dairy milks. We thought we were untouchable! Now look.